And I've Just Got To Be Mee, Meee, Meeee
2002-08-23 - 7:26 p.m.
"Courage see me through, heart I'm trusting you..."
Many times, I get upset with myself because I trust - actually because I DON'T trust my heart completely. Wherever my heart takes me, I should follow with no question, no hesitation. But I can't. Most of the time, it's because I hear everybody else's voice in the background, telling me why I shouldn't think the way I think, live the way I live, do the things I do. I'm living for everybody else except me. And I hate it.
I just can't stand the thought of disappointing anyone. Not one person. When people are upset with me, I feel sad. When people disagree with me, I feel bad. When people don't believe me, I feel wrong. What is the problem?
I know what I need to do, who I am, and who I want to be. I know that I love my individuality. I love my damn perspective. It's just that I am so afraid of the way people accept/don't accept my perspective that I rarely allow my actual view of life to be seen.
Time for me to be who I absolutely am: ME.
I can't change it, don't wanna change it. Just wanna be ME. Just wanna Bee Eee (huh, Mac?!).
Get Ready, ya'll.