Pessimism/Optimism
2001-08-16 - 9:32 a.m.
Hey Ya�ll.
The day before yesterday was a great day and a bad day all in one. I know somebody is saying � �Why not just let the past be the past?� I�m saying the same thing. It�s just amazing to me how life works sometimes, ya know?
The way my mind works is a miracle to me. I�m pessimistic and optimistic all at the same time. I see the worst in things while seeing the best in the situation. I don�t know how I got this way but I wish I could pick one side of the fence and stay put!
Bilal is stuck in my head and I don�t want to let him go. Just to know that it is possible to love someone like that. Only people who have listened to his album can understand what I�m saying so, if you want to be one of those people, BUY HIS ISHT! Bilal, �First Born Second�
I�m sitting at work, trying to be proactive. I�m trying to will life to send me a companion, a mate. I don�t want to be in love, I�m just looking for someone to hang out with, to pass the time so I don�t get lonely. I�m sick and tired of love and what it won�t do for me (pessimism) but at the same time I know there is someone out there for me so I�m just going to be patient (optimism). So, I�ve compiled a short (and I do mean SHORT compared to what I�m thinking) list of songs that I would like played at my wedding reception.
Here goes:
Aaliyah - One in a Million
Bilal - You Are
Brandy - Put That on Everything
Destiny's Child - Dangerously in Love
Dru Hill - Beauty (Remix)
Faith Evans - Reasons
Isley Brothers - Journey to Atlantis
Jimmy Cozier - She's All I Got
Jodeci - Luv U 4 Lyf
Luther Vandross - I Know
Maxwell - Whenever Wherever Whatever
Mint Condition - Forever in Your Eyes
Monica - Angel of Mine
Musiq - Love
Pebbles - Always
Playa - Cheers 2 U
PM Dawn - Die Without You
RL - Good Love
SWV - Rain
These songs epitomize love in my eyes and what it�s supposed to be and what it�s supposed to bring.
I�m moving back to campus by the end of this weekend. Another year begins. Last year, I prayed for certain things to happen before I even got back. They didn�t. I think it�s because those things weren�t meant to be. This year, I won�t pray for anything to happen ahead of time. I�ll just let what will happen, happen and pray when I need help getting through whatever happens.
Gotta go for now.
I�m trying to be dedicated to this thing.
Peace Ya�ll.